still not very comfortble being online but anyway long story short I quit my job cause I had a nervous breakdown, really bad one and spent the last month recovering
feeling a lot better already but still got a long way to go

guys I think im going to riot fest 2022
and the newak concerts as well
like really I think itll work im speachless

hello my dear ones
my father had some reactions cause the vax but he's fine now

good morning phrendz, today my father got the covid vax while holding one adorable sign telling the so called president to get out of office

violence 

violence against indigenous people in my country's getting a lot worst
they're invading lands, shooting people (men, elderly, women, kids), setting houses on fire, everyone's getting ill
it's like hell on earth

lately ive been feelings really annoyed by social media, specially Instagram
I archived all photos of my face, left just my drawings and changed the profile pic to a psyduck drawing
freedom at least

phobias 

so im trying to focus now on some positive things I guess maybe start painting again
drawing

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phobias 

now apparently im suffering from (temporary) agoraphobia
just the thought of leaving the house makes me panic

yes through all the anxiety here I am
idk why I vanish I love it in here it doesn't make any sente BUT STILL

Anxiety 

after i finished i did exact the same thing i did after my masters exam: cried like a baby, for like 20 minutes
it was horrible, id never wish something like that to my worst enemy, i hope i never have to go thought this again in my entire life
and oh my god i missed my friends (you) so much but i didnt even had the strength to write english!!!!!!!!

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Anxiety 

it was fucking pathetic
yesterday at the exam my hands were shaking so bad i couldn't type my test properly, kept missing the word
have no idea how i finished in time something presentable
my notebook almost died twice during the process
the platform I should upload the archive beated the shit out of me
and most of the time i was just thinking how i was about to die any secound

Anxiety 

spent dont even know how many days studying almost 600 pages of books i havendo seem in like 4 years
didnt slept
barely ate
simultaniously, the college a teach in decides it was a good time to return regular classes and work became a significant source of anxiety attacks
i cant drive cause of that, or be in a car without freak out
also: hours speaking to 3 or 4 kids, without water, without bathroom break, bruises from the mask

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