nsfw knives blood strangling 

@ChieanaStrider i lost my virginity when i was 15 to an older boy, who's had a pretty active sex life before, so i had to quickly adjust to needing to explore things. he kept asking me what were the things i liked, so being a fucked up teen i was, i had pretty intense experience with knife play, blood play, strangling (he overdid it once and i had a lot of burst capillaries (?) on my face, i looked blue for days).

medication, drugs 

i can feel the pills starting to work and i really do not like the effects, yeah, i'm not so anxious as i was before, but i actually stopped caring about anything at all and hate it. just want to be done with this and get high out of my fucking mind to feel something

@ChieanaStrider this isn't very comforting... terrifying, actually. but i'm glad we all have a place to escape to

anxiety medication 

for the last few days talking to you on here takes my mind off things so much that i can do without my second half of the tranquilizer pill in the evening!


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